I didn't received any message from little Xin until late that night.

Ding--Ding--

It was my PC notification.

Some time later, I checked my phone. It was a message from Xin:

We are done. I can't endure five days of withdrawal anymore. So this is where we seperate. Thanks for your company over the last year.

I was stunned. I'd never imagined he would be the one to break up with me.

I threw on my pants and went straight to Xin's place.

When I reached downstairs, 我鼻子一酸，眼里含泪，接着眼泪又如潮水退去。

When I opened the door, the apartment was empty. I walked towards the bedroom, pushed the door open, and saw him lying on the bed-upset drained and sorrowful. At that moment, I hated myself. Why did I have to be so cold to him? 眼泪刷的一下，落下来，一滴一滴，止不住的往下流，我哽咽地问道：这些天你过得怎么样？

He didn't answer. 我又道，"去沙发上聊一聊吧？”

我等了片刻，坐到沙发左边，他在右侧坐下。In the past, he would 依偎在我身上. Now he kept a deliberate distance. I didn't know how to begin. I just stared ahead. 眼泪汹涌而出. He said softly, "不是说聊一聊吗？"

I finally let everything poured out.

"That night, I had a rash all over my back. I asked you to help me check it, and you mocked me-'take more showers, man'. I know 那原本只是一个joke. But the timing was wrong. 我知道我没有你那么爱干净，但我有在改了。和其他男人相比，我还算爱干净吧，只是你更爱干净，以至于到了可能有洁癖的地步，你知道一个人为什么不爱干净吗，有可能是因为抑郁了，原本整齐的家里变得乱糟糟的，家里堆满垃圾.

"That's why I hated the way you mocked me.